"Aching Call"

SMS from Jaes 24/06/05

Muah!

My beauty

my wild whisper

my caress

my sexual days

and Sunday rest...


You're my pure light

my heart song

my spirits fire

burning strong...


I love you
my baby darling wife vixen my all...

God sent you to me
when he heard my aching call...

"I Know Who I Am"

Written: 25/03/05


Yes...
I know who I am...

i have risen from within...
risen up from that place ...
where i have kept all the dogs at bay...
risen from my nurturing house...
risen from my childhood friend...
risen from my warmest chamber...
risen into the arms of sunlight...
waiting patiently all this long while...
waiting for me to step out...
and see with fresh eyes...
without fear...
to step upon the solid ground...
walk into my life...
taste its freedom...
taste is beauty...
taste every sublime echoing song upon my lips...
taste these kisses...
that have waited...
these loving eyes...
that look into mine...
that look squarely into my heart...
and say...
i've waited so long for you...
your'e all i ever dreamed of...
all i've prayed for...
so long ago...
your'e the answer to my hearts cry...

yes...
i know who i am...

i'm not defined by anyone else...
i've made my choices...
rich in freedom...
discovered who i am...
am discovering still..
i like myself...
i've risen...
and i feel so beautiful...
and ...
i feel so loved...
adored...
more then this...
i feel aprecriated...
just because i'm me...
can be myself...
i've risen into the arms of love...
risen into god's design...
risen into my choices...
and now i soar...
and more...
my amour...
soars with me...
i've risen

"Tender Rest"

Written: 09/03/05



Baby...

Each liquid flow drop and drizzle..
paint, splash, flash, glow...
silky touch of your spirits tender caress is
felt every moment
in my heart..
you are my art..
my fresh burst bloom..
seed thats risen..
my taste my flavoursome dish..
that God has sown..
into my life so that I ..
no longer know..
sad songs but grow..
lovelier..
in this soft peaceful grace..
this evergreen love which..
gives me tender rest..
sends me soaring..
thanking God for every breath you take and share with me..
this sweet journey ..
together..
I love you eternally..
I'll never..
leave you..
ever..
I pray the God of love ..
to sweeten your sleep and your every waking moment..

Your Sayang. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.

"No More Words"

Written:03/04/05 by Jaeson Iskandar



My baby Sharron...

I don't have the words

no more words

only tears

only smiles

only sighs

only all the
most verseless

the most silent

the most quiet

the most swift quick thought

but no words

nothing

that i could

utter

mutter

make

syllables

to sound out your love

like how you are so intensely loving

and so fiercely wonderous

and how you roam with me

how you travel with me

no matter what

the distances

say to our minds

your heart

screams

to be

heard

so that

in your kisses

your embraces

your letters

your holding hugging gestures

are all the words I need

and i hope all my

spirit's warmth

that reaches

out these

distances

do

just

that little bit

to remind you

that i too want to love you

beyond the fences, cages, waters boundaries

and i too

want you to feel me there...

where

there are no such things

as miles or wing sweep... or journey...

there is only

constant

connection

to one another

for now and ever more...

i love you my baby

how you keep me in the embrace of adoration

and i want you to know that i feel you

and hope you feel me too...

if only a whisper

but i'm here

i'm there too...

with you...

i love you

i love you

I love YOU...

"There You Are"

Written:03/04/05


Jaes...

Whenever I think of you...

which is every day...
all my moments...

mornings i wake and
there you are...

nights i sleep and
there you are...

dreams i dream and
there you are...

art i make and
there you are...

love i have and
there you are...

desire I feel and
there you are...

I ache I quake I wish and want
I sigh I'm high I scheme and fly

and all these damned miles

oceans blue and skies and land and every stick and tree and piece of grass
every pebble and stone and sands and roads and tracks and leas...

and every thing...

that gets in the way of me being with you...
you being with me...

I think of you..
and there you are...

I don't have to go far...

you light my mind
your'e my greatest find...
my jewel deep night
song in flight
dreams delight
heart so bright
loves epic height...

there you are...

Whenever I think of you...

there you are...

and its ok...
everythings alright...

I love you...

without end without limit without doubt

I love you!

Your Sayang...

Forever.